April the Grouch

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I have been a bit of a grouch the past few days for no reason at all. I'd like to blame it on PMS but I know that there are other factors as well. I bought some Reese's hearts, a deep red nail polish and a new loofah last night so that made me feel a little better. I also had some desperately needed Kaylie time, which always helps. Even if she just needs to listen to me complain for an hour she's always willing to be there for me. Being upset over little things and letting my stresses of life get the best of me is what has made me a grouch. I've been focusing on little things that shouldn't bother me instead of the important things. I haven't been being grateful for the help I've been receiving. There are many wonderful people in my life that are trying to help me and alleviate my stress and what do I do about it? I get mad. So dumb! After thinking about it all I've realized that Satan is making me feel the way I have been. He's making me become offended and be upset over dumb insignificant things that I should be grateful for. I need to focus my attention on the things that matter most. I am committing to myself right now that no matter what happens I will show gratitude and I will learn to look for the good in everything instead of being selfish and stubborn like I have been the past few days. I have so many good things going for me in my life right now that I shouldn't have the time to complain - there's just no room for it! I am engaged to an absolutely amazing man who loves spending time with me and puts up with me when I am a grouch. He knows how to handle me when I'm in a funk and he knows how to cheer me up like no one else can. He's always there for me even if all I need is a hug or someone to vent to. He means the world to me and I don't know what I'd do without him. I'm so glad I don't have to worry about being without him - he's gonna be mine for forever!

The Gift of Choosing

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Lately in a couple of my classes we have talked about life and how God has given us the gift of agency to make our own decisions in life, and how no matter where you come from, or what your circumstances are you have the power to choose for yourself the kind of life you want to have. What a wonderful thing! There are definitely some things in my life that I wish I could change, but at the same time I am grateful for. The experiences I've had in my life so far have made me who I am today and I have learned so much about myself and the potential I have as a child of God.

I know that we have all made the decision to come to this earth to have our faith tested and that if we nourish our relationship with our Father in heaven He will lead us in the ways that are best for us and for all of those who we have an affect on.

I have been blessed tremendously in my life. 
Just to name a few of my greatest blessings...

A loving family who will do anything for me
My amazing fiancé and his wonderful family
An amazing and prestigious college to receive an education at - BYU
Friends who have always been there for me when I needed it most and continue to do so
A country where I have the freedom to express myself and make something out of myself

There are definitely many others things that I have been blessed with in my life and I sometimes wonder why someone like myself has so many blessings. What did I do to deserve them? Then I remember - it's because I am loved by so many people and above all I am loved by my Heavenly Father. He's happy with me when I'm doing what's right and when I mess up He's there to help me realize I could be doing better and gives me the necessary tools like scriptures, prayer and church leaders that I can use to improve. 

Wanna know somethin' cool? He does this for everyone! I can promise you that. :)

Vida es bonita.

I'm engaged!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

In case you didn't know...I'm engaged! :) Cole and I will be getting married on April 29th of this year in the Bountiful Utah LDS Temple. We can't wait to begin our life together!

Here's the video what went down in Times Square of  New York City on the 29th of December this past year. I said yes to spending the rest of my life and eternity with my best friend Cole Gordon! :)

Love Sick & Gross Sick

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Being sick has never been something I've been a big fan of, but for some reason my body really enjoys catching yucky colds and sicknesses. Right now I feel dizzy, I have to blow my nose pretty often and I have a cough. It's not fun! However...I am still a very happy girl. I fixed my school schedule so it won't be as intense as it was going to be. This was a good idea because I can't really seem to focus on anything except for the fact that I'm going to marrying my best friend in 16 weeks and 1 day from today. He's sick too and that makes me hurt because he is my other half. He's my everything and all I want to do is curl up on a couch and sleep and watch movies all day with him. Sadly that can't happen because he lives 30 minutes away from me and because we both have jobs and school to worry about. All we can do for now is work to make money since we're poor, study so we can get good jobs that will keep us from being poor for our entire lives, and get over this yucky funk we're in. We're in it together though and that's all that matters. He's my number one fan and my MVP. No doubt about it! We got to spend New Years in New York together and it was an unforgettable and amazing experience. He surprised me by asking me to marry him in the middle of Times Square! I mean we had already decided we were gonna get married and our parents knew and some friends but I wasn't expecting him to pop the question til after we had gone to Texas for MLK weekend. I'm glad he did though! He is amazing and I can't imagine my life without him and I don't have to because he's mine and he will be mine forever!

This was just as Cole proposed - I was so surprised and oblivious that it was about to happen!