I. Can't. Focus!

Sunday, December 26, 2010

So it's been really nice being home, seeing my family and friends, and pigging out on yummy food...but can it be Monday already please?! I'm dying without my other half who is anxiously waiting for me to get to New York City to finally be with him again after 12 loooooong days! 

These two are the only things that my mind thinks about.

Home for the Holiday

Saturday, December 18, 2010

I'm in the homeland of Texas! I got here Wednesday afternoon and the weather was BEAUTIFUL. It's pretty chilly now, but it's gonna warm up so that's nice! 

Every time I come home for any school break it's always kinda different. It's a different feel than it was when I actually lived here. I think it's just because I've now moved on in life. I love it here and I love coming home to see my family and my friends that I haven't seen in a while, but I've definitely moved on from this place. I had some good times and some bad times growing up here, and being here for long periods of time just kinda puts me in a funk. There's not a lot to do so I end up sittin at home most of the day and hanging out with my family and then I end up going to Walmart to get a movie from the Red Box and some Blue Bell ice cream with Erin and Savanna. It makes for good times, but I definitely miss the night life of Provo. I especially miss my amazing boyfriend Cole! This is the longest we've been apart from each other and it's definitely not fun or easy for either one of us. 
At least we have adventures in New York to look forward to! :)

Even though there's not a lot to keep me entertained I was able to tag along with my dad to go to one of the farms that my family has and feed the cows. This was something that I absolutely LOVED to do when I was growing up. I would get up and go with my grandpa early on Saturday mornings and help him out by standing in the back of his truck and holding cow cake in my hands and feeding it to the cows. Unfortunately this time the cows weren't used to me being around so they were pretty nervous with me being around, but it was nice getting to go out there and see the cows and the farm land that I have so many memories on. I also got some good pictures of the Texas sunset! Oh how I miss it.

The salt blocks and bags of cow cake we gave to the cows.

They were chowing down!  

I made her pretty nervous so she kept her distance.

This is what the sun looked like just after we got to the farm.

This is what it looked like as we were getting ready to leave. So beautiful!

Temple Square at Christmas Time

I just love Temple Square in SLC around Christmas time! Going there to see the lights and see the nativity scene that's set up is just the way to get into the Christmas spirit. Cole and I along with his amazing sister Madi and her friend Omar went to the BYU basketball game and then went to walk around Temple Square afterwards to look at the lights. It was lots of fun with people that I love!

The Reason for the Season

Sunday, December 12, 2010

I have been thinking a lot about Christmas and what it's really all about. I've realized that for the majority of my life I haven't really focused a lot on the true meaning of Christmas. I remember listening to the Christmas story that's found in the gospels of the New Testament (Matthew, Mark, Luke and John) and the older women telling the story with the felt board and I always loved that! I feel like for the most part though most of my Christmases have been all about the gifts. Not saying that giving gifts is bad, but it's definitely not what Christmas is all about. I am grateful for the true meaning of Christmas and I know that the reason we celebrate it is because we are commemorating the life of our Savior Jesus Christ. He was the perfect example of how we should live our lives and He lives today to help us out when we need it. I'm so grateful for Him and all that He has done for me and all that He continues to do. I hope and pray that we all have a very Merry Christmas and that we take into account the reason for this season.

We watched this today in my Sunday school class and it really touched me. I hope you enjoy it! :)

He's Got It All

Friday, December 3, 2010

Mr. Nicholas Clark Gordon has it all. He's mine all mine and I LOVE it! 
He always knows how to make me smile and laugh. 
There's never a dull moment with him. 
He's so good to me and I plan on keepin' him around for a while!!

Father Knows Best

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

As much as we all hate to admit, our parents usually know what's best for us. Especially our Heavenly Father. I have been thinking a lot about my life and what it has taken to make me who I am today and to get me where I am today and I know that without having faith in God and in the plans He has for me I would be nothing. I am so blessed and as I start to notice the little things He does for me each and everyday and as I notice my blessings the more they start to stand out and I am better able to see His hand in my life. I am SO grateful for the people that He has placed in my life to get me where I am today. As stressed as I am with the demands of school, work and life in general I can still find peace and happiness in knowing that I am loved by my Father in heaven and He will help me get through anything as long as I trust in Him. What a wonderful thing that is! I think it being the Christmas season has me thinking a lot about this and how God sent His only begotten son to earth to suffer for all of our pains, sicknesses and afflictions. We cannot even begin to understand this miraculous event but we can use it in our lives and show God that we are trying to live our lives in ways that He would have us do by being grateful for all that we're blessed with and by sharing those blessings with others.

Vida es bonita.

¡Feliz cumpleaƱos a mi mejor amiga Savanna! :)

Monday, November 22, 2010

Today is a day that I am most grateful for. It is the celebration of the day of the birth of one of my best friends and she deserves a shout out...


You must know that she has seriously saved my life many times. Spiritually and mentally. She is a wonderful example of a true friend and I seriously do not even know where I would be in my life without her having been the wonderful friend and person she is. Even though she's in Hawaii and I'm here in Utah we still have an awesome friendship and we know that we are both always here for each other no matter what happens in life. 

Here are a few of my favorite times with her:

Our first time to ice skate was quite the adventure - on and off the ice!

She got to come to Utah before going out to Hawaii for school this fall. This was our late night run to Denny's. Good times! :)

For Matraca's 18th birthday we dressed up REALLY weird and crazy - took the golf cart for a spin and went to Walmart. Only with her and Erin and Matraca could something so weird and crazy be so fun. :)

Our senior party at church was fun and we just love little Miss Avery!

 Finding funky clothes in Forever 21 is always a good adventure!

 My first time to fly in any kind of airplane was pretty scary - but Savanna was by my side for it all!

Our "America's Next Top Model" shoot for our senior yearbook picture was so fun!

Girls camp is always a bittersweet thing. Through the latrines, rain, throw up, and bear scares we made some very memorable memories in the mountains of good ole New Mexico.  

 We like to try and be thuggish sometimes. Thanks to Campbell and Olson we can somewhat succeed at it by wearing their clothes and shoes. Haha!

She was not all about hiking the Y but I insisted that we do it - she was a trooper!

 Going to the lake in Texas is always so fun and makes for good memories. Especially when I bust really hard on the knee board and almost break my back.

Road tripping from Utah to Texas for Tamra's wedding and surprising everyone was definitely a good memory with her. Oh the things you do when you're lacking sleep.

Savanna and I have had many wonderful times together and I know that we will be friends for the rest of this life and the next. 


Utah, Texas, NYC = Bliss

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Am I excited to go to Midway with Cole and his family for Thanksgiving break? YES.
Am I excited to fly to Texas for Christmas and see my wonderful family and friends? YES.
Am I excited to go to New York for New Years with Cole and his family? ABSOLUTELY YES!
Am I going to go crazy waiting for all of this to happen? YES.

Life is bueno

Monday, November 15, 2010

So in the past few weeks a lot has gone on! Please let me explain. 

First of all my roommates and myself got to go to an apple orchard here in Provo and pick apples, ride on a zipline and take adorable pictures! It was definitely time well spent with some amazing girls. 

We also dressed up as a cute pumpkin patch and drove up to a cabin of a friend of ours and ate some yummy food and got our groove on. We were told we were the life of the party. AS ALWAYS.

Megan, Kaylie and myself roadtripped to Ft. Collins Colorado this past weekend to follow our BYU Cougars and cheer them on to a victory against CSU. It was freezing cold but we had a wonderful time together. It was definitely a great escape from the demands of school and life here in Provo.

And last but certainly not least I have a boyfriend named Nicholas Gordon (goes by Cole) who I like a lot. He's SO good to me and I look forward to every moment spent with him (and his family). We're going to watch the midnight showing of the new Harry Potter movie this Thursday (and I've only seen 2 of the 6 so I've got some catching up to do before then) and I'm super excited about it! We go on lots of fun dates and have many laughs together. It's great! I am staying here for Thanksgiving break and since he only lives 30 min away from here I'll get to spend almost all day everyday with him during that break. Oh how excited I am for that. Also I may be going to New York City for New Years with him and his family!! How cool would that be?! It's not set in stone but I will seriously starve myself for the next month and a half and do whatever I can to earn money so that I can go. 
Updates to come on that later on. :) 
I don't have a picture of us together (yet) so this will have to suffice. :)

 All in all life is good and I've learned that things never go as planned so we should just take advantage of the things that do work and go with them if they feel good and get rid of them if they don't!

Esto es mi vida.

My new favorite song/theme song for my life.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

So I must first start by saying I love Pandora. I listen to the Country Pop channel while I sit at work and being the country music guru that I am I know the majority of the songs that come on it, but then Pandora throws me for a loop when they play me somethin that I've never heard! Most of the time I skip it if it's not very appealing to me when I first hear it, but today I heard this one for the first time and fell in love. Lady Antebellum is amazing and I don't think they have a single song that I don't love but this one really touched me. This is what I want to do. I want to make my mark and do something with my life. I want to make a difference so that people know

Livin' life in the fast lane and lovin' it!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Sooo I realize it's been WAY too long since I've updated my blog but it really amazes me at how fast the time has gone by since the last time I posted - crazy!

Texas was wonderful as it always is. Nothin' beats the hot Texas sun and time with the ones you love the most. I am truly grateful for my family and all that they have done for me and continue to do for me so that I can be what I want to be someday. They support me 100% and give me love unconditionally. I'm so grateful that Heavenly Father has sent us to this earth and organized us into families. Sometimes our situations with them are rough and we face challenges as families but that's what brings us closer together. We realize we need to reach out and help our loved ones in their times of need and I know it's because of the innate love of family that we're all born with. I can only imagine what it will be like to one day sit down with all of the members of my family and talk with them and thank them for all that they've done for me and I've also realized how important it is to express that love and appreciation to the ones that we are here with today.

I've now ventured my way back to Utah and I am having a great semester thus far. My classes are definitely not the easiest (especially my Spanish ones) but I have found a deeper love for learning and applying what I learn in everything that I do. I feel SO blessed to be here at BYU. It is truly such a wonderful place to be. There are definitely times where I wish I was just a little closer to home but honestly I wouldn't have it any other way. The people I've come in contact with here, the places I've been, the things I learn everyday, and the memories I've made and continue to make are seriously priceless. I truly believe that people are placed in our lives for certain reasons and we go through the experiences we do to learn and grow - that's what life on earth is all about!

One of my favorite classes this semester is my New Testament class. It's over the the 4 Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke & John) and it has been such a wonderful class so far. I've heard about Jesus Christ before and the things He did while on this earth but I've never really studied His life as a whole. He was truly perfect in every way possible. I've learned that as I learn about Him and try to align my life with the ways He taught I am a happier person and life seems to flow better. Something that my professor said one day was, "Know Christ, know peace. No Christ, no peace." Just a couple of sentences but there's seriously so much truth and depth to them! Even though we are all human and make mistakes if we turn to Jesus Christ and follow His example and let him wash away our sins we can have that peace and I know that to be true with every fiber of my being. I know I am nowhere near being perfect but as long as we are constantly and consistently trying to He will help us and pick up the slack.

I've come to realize the importance of time the past year or so of my life. I can remember being in high school and always lookin' forward to the day I would graduate and get outta my "podunk" town of Childress, Texas. Now that I look back on it I realize just how much easier life seemed to be then. I didn't have to worry about buying my own groceries, making sure my clothes were clean, cooking myself dinner, or having to pay rent. I now have many more responsibilities and things to tend to and bigger decisions to make compared to ones that I made in high school like where to go for lunch. I'm not complaining about the freedom I now have but I realize that time is precious and I wish I would've cherished the times that I had back at home. I got to see my family everyday, I got to play sports and learn so much from being a part of a team, classes were SOOO much easier than they are now and life was just a lot simpler than it is now. In no way do I want to seem like I'm complaining about my life now because as I previously stated I am so happy to be here in Utah and at the place in my life that I am, it's just that I realize now that I need to cherish the moment that I'm in and live each day like it was my last.

Just as Tim McGraw says, "Live like you were dying."

I also realize now that I wasn't grateful enough for my mom and all that she did for me without ever being thanked for. My mom has taught me so much without even necessarily trying to and I will be eternally grateful to her for that and for all that she does for me now. She has always had us kids as her top priority and has sacrificed so much for our happiness and well being. I hope to be a mom to my children like she has been to me.

To end this post I just want to say that I know of the divinity and perfection of Christ to be true and that as we place our faith and trust in Him we will be able to be made whole and have a peace within ourselves. 

He is always there for us when we need Him. 
He's just waiting for us to come unto Him to be healed. Why wait any longer? 
If you want to know more about Christ and my beliefs on Him take some time to go here and I promise you will learn and feel of His love for you as you earnestly seek Him.

I believe I can fly

Friday, August 20, 2010

Soooo I'm sitting at the airport in Salt Lake City about to get on a legit airplane for the FIRST TIME EVER! The drive up here from Provo was really good and as we got closer and closer to the airport I got butterflies like crazy!! I know it seems so crazy that I'm 19 and I've never flown before, but it's true! I've been on a little 4 person airplane last summer in Nebraska and that was lots of fun, but this is a LEGIT airplane we're talkin about here. I can hear them flying over and it just gets me so excited!! I'm headed to Denver, CO first and then it's Amarillo, TX! Yeehaw! :) I'm so ready to be home and see my family and friends and eat me some good southern food. It'll be a nice little break at home and when I get back up here to Utah it'll be nice to have everyone else back with me in Utah!! :) I'm gonna soak up some good Texas sun and eat me some good southern food and then it's back to the grind with school on the 30th. Life is great!!

Texas here I come!

Where has summertime gone?!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I can't believe it's already August!! Where in the world did June and July go?! When thinking about this past summer and what all I've done I must say it's been a pretty good one! I've made so many new friends and so many good memories. It was my first summer not being in good ole Childress, TX and I went to Arizona for the first time in my life this summer! (I was there for like 5 minutes once when I went to the Four Corners monument last summer, but I don't count that as really being in AZ). Why did I go to Arizona? To see one of my best friends from my freshman year here at BYU. He left on his mission just last Wednesday to go to Donetsk Ukraine and I just know he is going to bless the lives of many like he has mine. I also got a job this summer! It took me a while to find it, but I finally did. I work at the Daily Universe which is the newspaper for BYU and I love working there! I manage the classified section of the newspaper and help in other areas that I'm needed. It's so great and I was so blessed to be able to find the job.

This summer has definitely been a time of growing and changing, but all for the better. There have been many times where I have felt inadequate, inept, and unsure of myself but I have learned that all I can do is give whatever life throws at me my best shot and have faith in myself and in the Lord, and that with those 2 things I can get through anything just like Paul said in his Epistle to the Philippians "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Philippians 4:13 It's really hard to keep an outlook like that sometimes, but it's really all that I can do right now.

As I get ready for summer to come to an end I really feel like I can say that it's been a great summer and that I'm ready for fall semester to get here. I get to go home (and fly on an airplane for the first time!) on the 20th of this month and I'll be there for about a week, so that will be a good break for me, but then it's back to work and hittin the books hard this fall. Another thing I'm lookin forward to is football season! GOOOO COUGARS! :) We just bought sports passes yesterday and it made the reality of football kickin off set in a little bit more - can't wait!

As I go throughout each day of my life I realize that I need to be better at finding a way to serve someone. Whether it's holding the door open for the person behind me, picking up a piece of trash, or simply smiling at someone as they walk by me I want to do something for someone and a really neat quote I came by the other day inspires me to do so. It's by Dieter F. Uchtdorf (an amazing man) and it says, "In the end, the number of prayers we say may contribute to our happiness, but the number of prayers we answer may be of even greater importance." I think that is so true and I think if we all try to live our lives by this simple truth the world will be a happier, lovelier place to live in. I love my life and I know that as long as I try my best to be the best that I can in all aspects of life that I will continue to be blessed and in turn I will be happy. 

Love the life you live, and live the life you love!

Stewart Falls

Friday, June 18, 2010

So today Amy and I went on a hike with two of our good friend Devin and Ammon and it was way fun and SUPER beautiful! The weather was perfect for a good hike and the view was definitely worth hiking for. When I see the wonderful mountains, waterfalls, and many other "naturey" things I don't understand how people can deny that there's a God. There's no way things as beautiful as what I saw today just "happened." Growing up in Texas I never got to go on hikes and see mountains like I do here and I'm so glad that I've been able to get out and enjoy the outdoors a little more! I must say that Texas does have the prettiest sunsets that I've ever seen though. :)

This was the view walking up to Stewart Falls.

This was the stream that was along side the trail.

The 4 of us with Stewart Falls in the background.

Amy and I in front of the waterfall.

Stewart Falls!

Rainy Days & PJ's

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Today my day has consisted of sleeping in, watching Aladdin and A Cinderella Story, making myself some yummy pancakes, and just flat out being a lazy bum. Rainy days make me this way and usually I don't like the rain, but today I am certainly grateful for it. I really think we sometimes just need to take time to sit back, relax, and enjoy some time to ourselves and reflect on the good things in our lives. I know that for me I rarely get any alone time and there's always something on my "to do list" that is demanding my time and attention. There are so many times where I'm so caught up in the hustle and bustle of life that I don't take time to slow down and really appreciate what I have. Instead I complain about having so much to do. I am SO blessed in so many ways and it's days like today that remind me that instead of waiting for the storm to pass I need to just dance in the rain. Instead of complaining I need to count my blessings but not only count them...I need to share them with others.

May Madness

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

It's been over a month since I've posted so I'm gonna try to some things up real quick! I went home to Texas for a couple of weeks ago for Tamra and Aaron's wedding last month and got to be home for a couple of weeks and that was really nice! Savanna and myself had quite the adventure going home a whole week earlier than everyone expected, that's for sure!! :) We got to hang out with our old "crew" which consists of Matraca, Erin, Savanna and myself for the last time for a while because Matraca is now in New Zealand with a program called A.I.M. (Adventures In Missions), which I think is so wonderful! We love and miss her tons but we know that she is going to be such a blessing the people she comes in contact with over there.

It was great getting to see my family and friends but I'm definitely glad that I decided to come back to Utah. I love it up here so much. There's definitely times where I wish I was just a little closer to home but if I had to choose anywhere to go to school that's far away I'd definitely pick BYU just because it's such a wonderful place to be! :)

Since being back in Utah, I have been being a pretty big bum! My day consists of waking up whenever I want, laying out by the pool with my friends, going to get shaved ice, play laser tag, or watch a good chick flick! I most definitely needed a good break from life like I have right now BUT I am ready to start classes in a few weeks to get myself on a schedule and I'm doing the whole job hunting thing but I'm not having much success with it right now, which is kind of a bummer! It seems like you have to have some sort of connection to get a good job, but when you live in a place where all you know is a bunch of other college students who want a job it's kinda hard to find those connections! Something will come up I'm sure I'm just kinda being a little impatient I suppose. The month of May definitely flew by for me and I feel like I learned a lot about myself. It's so amazing how life throws things at you when you least expect them but you handle them so well and I know I can't take all of the credit for handling the things I've gone through the past month. I am blessed with so many wonderful friends and a great family to talk to and to have when I need them most. I am also blessed to have a knowledge and testimony of how much our Father in heaven loves us and watches over us and that He hears and answers our prayers. The answers are not always the ones we want, but they're most definitely there. Life is crazy at times and I wish it would slow down but then at the same time if it wasn't the way that it is I'd be bored! So at this point I'm just taking things a day at a time and trying to put my trust in the Lord that things will work out the way they're suppose to as long as I'm doing what I need to be doing and trying my best to follow the plan He has for me.

My Freshman Year at BYU

Sunday, May 2, 2010

  So now that finals week is over and pretty much everyone I know from my freshman group has gone home or to foreign countries, I feel like I can now say that I'm on to the next part of life since I'm now in my first real apartment and back at square one with only knowing a few people. I'm loving my new apartment a lot but I must say I kinda miss my basement dwelling that Kaylie and I called home all last year. There were many great times in there and in Whitney and Young hall in general! My freshman year at BYU was definitely a memorable year. I met sooo many wonderful people and I learned so much about myself throughout the course of it all. I learned that I could be on my own and that I had to rely on my Heavenly Father to get me through rough times even more than I did living at home. All in all I'd say I had a great freshman year and I'm super excited yet a little scared to see what the future holds for me just because I'm about to have to make some super big decisions that will affect the rest of my life and I'm hoping I'll be able to do what is right and what will help me to become the woman that I want to be and I know that as long as I really think about things and pray about them that I will be guided in the right directions to do so. 

So now that it's "officially" over I'd like to say that the most memorable things from my freshman year are...


        Kaylie and I are some of BYU's biggest sports fans.
        That's for sure! :)
We both had all sports passes and we definitely used them to their advantage!

    Our intramural volleyball team was LEGIT! And we will be returning this fall. :)

Yes, Kaylie and I were "ninjas" at one point.

Slurpee runs to 7-11 were so fun! :)

Studying out on the hill was so nice when the weather permitted.

B-ritt came to P town for a week and we had a blast with her! She's so great!

Our trip to Temple Square in SLC was definitely one to remember. We had quite the adventure on the
trax. Haha! I love these two girls so much. :)

Our spontaneous trip to Squaw Peak was the perfect kick start to finals week!

Savanna, and myself went on a "hike" on my birthday and I was worried that we wouldn't live to see the end of the day...but we made it nonetheless! :)

All in all freshman year was a blast! I'm gonna miss all the people that I hung out with but I know I've made friendships that will last a lifetime. BYU is awesome and I'm ready to see what the next few years have in store for me here in good ole Provo, Utah!